There is a popular theory for people who have RA and other immune diseases that has to do with spoons. They say you should imagine that you have a certain number of spoons each day and when they are gone, they are gone. No borrowing from the next day’s spoons or finding an old spoon under the sofa. The spoons represent energy. And not just energy to run a mile or workout at the gym. Energy to bend down to tie your shoe or feed the dog…
So last weekend when Tyler moved out I ran totally out of spoons. I thought I could cheat and “push through it”. It didn’t work. Each day of the week, I felt worse and worse until Thursday I literally could not get out of bed. I called in sick to work and tried to take care of myself.
By Friday I felt okay, so I went ahead and drove out to Sequim for the agility trial. I was planning to compete on Friday and Saturday, stay Saturday night and hopefully do some hiking or beachwalking on Sunday.
Friday morning started with T2B for Tally. It went okay until the A-Frame, which he bailed. So I picked him up and carried him off. He had done a very nice teeter in that run, where he even stopped on it long enough for me to get around and turn in front of him. So it was okay.
Then Hannah JWW. She had a nice run and got a Q. Then Hannah Standard. There was only one tricky part in the course near the end. Hannah did fine up until then, and I pushed her to hard and she took the wrong side of the jump. We will never get a standard Q.
Then Tally JWW. He was working with me, but he had a lot of bars. I think maybe 4 or 5? Sigh. Then Tally Standard. Nice dogwalk, but again bailed the A-frame and got walked off.
Time to go. It was a bit frustrating day for one part due to the fact I had planned to stop on the way and get breakfast and some snacks for the day, but I ran out of time. It is a long drive out to Sequim. So I thought, no biggie, I will just eat something at the trial. But they had nothing. Not a muffin or a banana or even any water. Luckily I had water. Lunch was strictly for workers. Since I was running in every class prior to lunch, I had not yet worked. So I was just out of luck on food. After a whole day with nothing to eat, I was starved – so I splurged and had a big burger and a milkshake for dinner.
Didn’t sleep well Friday night, and was pretty tired by Saturday. Tally once again bailed the A-frame in T2B. Beginning to wonder if this walking him off thing is ever going to work. Hannah had a super JWW for another Q / first place. She is the jumping queen! Standard was hilarious. We did some super fancy stuff at the beginning, including leaving out the whole middle part of the course. Oh shoot.
Tally JWW – MUCH BETTER!!!! I remember to call out every jump. He worked with me and only had two bars. I was very pleased. Tally Standard – Well, he got the a-frame. I praised and praised. I have to say I changed the tone of my command for the a-frame. Instead of TOUCH!! I said, Tally, Please please please touch. Please….. I guess it was the magic word He almost forgot but then he stopped and looked very pleased with himself.
The bad part of that run is that it ended with a send to the last jump which was a triple. Tally was so keyed up, instead of taking the jump, he came back to me and bit me hard in the arm. Sigh. I just reactively grabbed his muzzle – hard. He yelped and then I felt bad. I didn’t know what else to do.
Anyway, I was so tired, I could not imagine hiking or anything the next day, I just wanted to go home, so I just left and went home.
Lots to think about. I am going to try to teach him an alternate behavior at the end of a run. We will see.